In death with physicality stripped away and our essence released to join the eternal song of creation, there is no sin or offense, no judgement or worry. Dancing to the song of birds and the roaring of rivers and blood, the percussion of hearts and particles reforming, the silent sound of planets spinning and the burning of the stars. Perhaps we will watch our bodies decompose and dance with joy at the transformation of matter and energy. We will see smells and lie down on a moving bed of cilia. We will experience a cosmic give and take, exchanges of oxygen and consumption, of rotting and growth and feeding, of colors undreamt of by our limited cones and rods. From electric hazes of energy to swirling microorganisms to the magnetic pull of atomic structures. It was the idea that death is the process by which all our filters for perception are removed, when instead of losing contact with creation we are finally able to perceive it as it truly is, on all levels. In this liminal state a thought also appeared, fully formed. The image vanished before I could zoom in further.
At the same time, I was aware that there was still more to see, and that the dial had been turned up only minutely, offering just a tiny hint at what can be seen through the veil. It shifted into an intense clarity, and I knew that I was seeing more than I ever had before. The picture quickly moved from non-existence to what I perceive as normal vision, but then kept going. The plants grew increasingly defined, the colors grew sharper, the lines between each leaf more intense. It was like looking through the lens of a microscope where the first view is completely out of focus, but then you start zeroing in. They didn't sprout and bloom before my eyes, instead the fully formed image materialized out of grayness into clarity and then on to something more. It was an image of green, growing things, like succulents pushing out of dark earth. One slipped away from my recollecting almost immediately, but a faded version of the second remains.
During a recent sleepless night two such visions appeared. Behind closed eyelids visions blossom, growing the way chrysanthemum fireworks pulse out from a central point into fullness. The state between wakefulness and sleep is fecund dark and loamy.
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